Eze's Musing

One dose of acceptance, too much. And then I finally know it may not be exactly a wild goose chase..  But has that knowing helped me?  It has rather inflamed those passions hitherto quietly lying. Let love wait till her due time. I have followed a lady for some long time. But I could never tell if she was in any way intrested in the game. My calls to her get answered in a way that leaves me perplexed as at what my chances were with her. I loved her with all my heart. She has pulled some stunts that had left me desperate - whole nights of sapped energy and no motivation. It took me a while to associate some of my down times with her stunts. I could find myself acutely unfocused  and unproductive. I guess I was too proud to admit that a Christian man could be love sick. Or more gravely, could be heart broken for love not forthcoming. 'My girl's' method broke all codes compatible with my naive mind. But some how, I couldn't let go. I entirely broke logic.

"I stand as a bottle of groundnuts alone. People look on at me without appeal.  Then bananas come, and I immediately become most wanted.  So is a man's life, alone we mean little but when a few things happen, we become valuable." A man could toil for years without gaining appeal. Then a  breath happens upon him and boom - out flows his flavor. So is the life of a man. Like a bottle of groundnuts. So also are his efforts. He most times puts in a lot. But there is this final touch without which those efforts are unappealing. Those special touches are bananas . A man's work after he has become a bottle of groundnuts is to find out what his bananas should be. He should seek this earnestly. Here are possible bananas: 1) A new network of friends or friend 2) New partnerships for career or business 3) A spouse 4) A change of location 5) A change of unproductive work attitudes 6) A change of worldview 7) A breakthrough Summarily, the mix of things t